Ouroboros

At some point in my life, probably when the men in the big trucks came to remove my family and I from existence in order to protect their own deep dark truth, I decided and worked toward a moment where I would no longer be afraid of my truth. Where I realized I have spent…

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How to Survive

I’m was having a moment one morning where I was remembering a day that took a piece of my heart and replaced it with cold dead steel, literally and figuratively. I can’t honestly tell you what I was doing prior to The Phone Call. Yes, I capitalize it that way because it has that much…

Lightworkers United

You don’t ever realize that when you make a determination to heal yourself, that this also means that those around you who aren’t quite ready to heal may not come with you.  There is a lot of heartbreak around healing, how ironic is that?  I should have known that when a hawthorn tincture I had…

Hallways

When going through everyday life, it’s so much easier to walk through unconscious, in my experience. You don’t have to think about each step, each action. You just do it, right? This moment in time has created a change in me where I am actually fully aware and conscious of each vibration I make. I’ve…

The Keys to Healing

Just for today, I’m letting go of yesterday. No, really, I mean it this time. The last five years weren’t for no reason. It has felt like what I imagine in my adult mind is a physical rebirth. I’ve been through the entire gamut of emotions that a human being can possibly acknowledge, with full…

Find Your Light

When did we become believers that in order to be shown favor upon God, we had to eschew our natural inclinations? At what point did this become the norm for us? I ponder this because I read or heard something very poignant recently. The discussion was surround the idea of sin in religion. Please forgive…

Be Like a Butterfly.

What we don’t realize when we are raising our children, no matter if they are our children by birth or our culture, is that we are basing their limitations on our life experience. From my perspective, it’s when this happens that we give birth to some sort of deviant behavior. However, that then leads one…

Haunted Houses

I’m writing about it because this is my form of addiction: trying to squeeze out some sort of resemblance of a loving relationship from family members and friends where it’s unreciprocated. It’s like walking through a haunted house. Go me for recognizing it, but it doesn’t hurt any less. It just serves as a reminder that there are some things in life, that no matter how much I want them to BE, it’s not meant to be.

Food for the Soul

I’ve been studying a different path recently, one that resonates very well for me. So much so, it’s almost like I designed it for myself. Funny how that happens, huh? Part of the lesson for the week involves pausing before reacting to any sort of energy, but especially the negative. The lesson is to learn…

Forgiveness.

The days leading up to this day have been full of lessons that I didn’t realize until this very moment were preparing me for today. Almost five years ago to the day, my little family and I started out on what we thought was a horrific tale of human frailties. I’ve since learned that what…

Dance with the Ego

Some of us experience a more difficult path because we are being challenged to pave the way for the lost that are coming across our path. It’s our job to console them and show them that we made it through, they can, too. That’s what the message is. The message is most always in the mailbox at the end of the driveway on Ego Street. It’s where it meets the highway to Universal Healing. You can’t get there until you traverse the edges of hell. If you find that you are still shrugging your shoulders and saying to your Self, “Well, remember that time I lost everything…,” there’s still work to be done.

How are you doing?

This has been a bumpy ride for the whole of humanity as of late. I think we are all feeling the effects of it. What has me concerned for most of you is that panic and disbelief seem to be taking precedence over rationale and reasoning. For some reason, we think someone is coming to…

The Scientific Spiritualist. What?

***Edited to acknowledge that the commentary regarding the dolphins and swans was found to be untrue. Leaving it for context, as I believe it’s still a gift, the people responsible for the story were trying to give a gift of hope. Thank you for your compassion. I forgive you. Thank you for your patience with…

Be the Lighthouse

I’m learning about the capabilities of transmuting dark into light. My journey, emotionally, through darkness and turning it into a gift from my benevolent Self. It’s what our lessons are for. Somewhere along the way, we became corrupted into thinking that we aren’t worthy of even our own love. Think about that for a second….

Digging for Roots.

Root chakra = red Root means what? Where are your roots? How do you tap into them? Yes, this is my brain today. I have discovered how much I love schisandra berries. A little goes along way. The berries could totally be used as pink peppercorns and would taste fantastic with salmon. I dumped some…

Shell Shocked America

It’s been a while since I have written. The area where I live was hit with horrific tornados, the kind that pick eighteen wheelers off the ground and hurl them off the interstate. It serves as a reminder of the importance in living fully each day. I can work out every single day of my…

Reciprocity

For so long, it was important to me to show my daughter what it’s like to have a loving relationship. Up to now, I had focused on romantic relationships.

How much is your life worth?

Hell, maybe it’s the helicopter bill that’s hanging over my and my husband’s heads because yet again the healthcare website failed to update something, we were cut off from health insurance. Again. Filed an appeal. Again. Nope, none for you thanks. We don’t care if you pay six months back or even a year in advance. Have a great day. Next.

Growth can be painful

I started this blog so I can document my progress through this disease. At the moment, I’m giving myself some quiet mental space. I’m waiting on my “type” of dis-ease. I have bloodwork in a lab somewhere in the United States. After that comes through, I can finally move to the next stage. Will treatment…

Food for thought.

Circumstances will proceed in the direction that you steer them. I read that today while I was doing some spiritual searching. Apparently, that was the message I was to receive because it resonated with me so strongly. Almost like someone shouted it at me. You have to let those words hit you directly to get…

Out with the Old, In with the New

I think it’s safe to say that even those that don’t equate themselves as empaths can feel the effects of some old, dark energy that no one has noticed before. If anything, I think most of us are becoming more aware of vibrations, our Mother Earth is doing her best to show us physically, as…

Sometimes I amaze myself

I’m starting to do so with somewhat regularity, lately. Here’s a little dark humor here, but do you ever have those moments where things are running so smoothly, and you were so used to eating shit sandwiches that you are paranoid that life is humming along a little too smoothly? Like, the almighty clue by…

It Takes A Village

I spent a considerable amount of time on the phone with someone I love very much the night before last. Mostly all night. It had been a long time since we had connected so, there was a lot we had to get caught up on. A lot of it was centered around catching up over…

Revising My Dialogue

It’s very interesting what can occur when you undertake a spiritual and healing journey. When you become aware of nuances you didn’t recognize before, but I’m grateful that I can be more mindful of my words and how things are presented, while making others aware of where I stand. I speak about things that I…

We Have to Change the Dialogue

It’s up to us to change and shift into a culture that is more accepting for all of us. As I have mentioned before, there are some of us who have had difficult relationships. I think, now, on hindsight, most of us realize the term “relationship” can be with just about anything. I’m trying to…

Ahhh. PTSD. We meet again.

I have to share this with y’all, only because it’s a struggle after having exposed so much truth of myself. However, I’m also of the mind that if I don’t show you my weak moments, then you don’t know that it’s okay to talk about it. It’s important to me to be aligned with myself…

Generational Alcoholism

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. — Oscar Wilde. For generations, many families have had their fair share of family secrets to deal with. It may come as a surprise to many that alcoholism is a skeleton that can hang in the closet across generations, much like I have discovered, personally. This disease may…

Want to join me on my Journey to Health?

“We are all just walking each other home.” ~ Baba Ram Dass You may be asking yourself why I am choosing to document my journey to health. Why would I expose such an intimate part of myself? My journey hasn’t been easy, but it has made me realize that healthcare if more than just health…

The Cost of Freedom

Freedom says When you treat others the way you feel they have treated you You have denied your Self a choice Each time we enter and exit each others lives We are answering a prayer, wish, and/or request When you deny this Truth, you only draw it closer It’s up to us to set us…

12:12: What does this mean?

Drumbeat, please. Do you hear it or at least feel it? As I settle back into my bones, I’m struck by just how lost I have been. By lost I mean found. There have been many significant moments in my life and I’m grateful to have lead such an extraordinary one. Believe me when I…